I so love spring time...not only does nature come alive but so do I. Especailly after a long, trying winter like I have had this past year. But when the sun starts to warm me up and I can smell the trees breathing I just feel so happy. No other way to explain it. But this time I'm even more happy than I ever thought I would be. When I am outside with Ava and she is waddling around in her big purple hat and laughing at the rocks she is holding and clanking together....I am overwhelmed with so much emotion and happiness that I feel like I might explode, but I usually cry. But a happy cry! I am just so thankful for my little girl and my family. I have an amazing husband and we have a great life (and by that I don't mean things, I mean we have an amazing relationship and we love each other more than words could express and we have fun together and would both do anything for one another and for our little girl). I never could have imgained the love a child could bring to a marriage. Now its like every look we give says "I LOVE YOU" and "I LOVE HER". She has brightened my world in so many ways. I have always been aware of myself and my surroundings and I have always tried to be thankful for my life, but when she came into it, and ever since then, I have been increasingly grateful to God for this blessing. I try to make sure my attitude is always one of grattitude. I know that may sound silly or corny but its TRUE. I live my life thankful, for EVERYTHING. Even when things seem bad...I try to be thankful they aren't worse. I just don't want to spend my life worrying, or letting negative thoughts plague my world. Negativity can over come you and before you know it you are a miserable, "why me" type of person. I refuse to be that way. I want to leave this world knowing that I embraced my life and the blessings I was graced with. And as I have always felt this way, my current choice of reading material has just ellaborated this feeling over and over again for me. Its a book of hope. Its called Anti-Cancer: A Way of Life. I'm in love with it, because though it tells a story or disease and havoc it also tells a story (a non-fiction one) of power, knowledge, control, and HOPE. I have cancer, we ALL have cancer cells in our bodies, its just that some of our bodies do a better job of keeping those cells in check. I know someone who does currently have cancer. I plan to share this book with her. But right now I want to share it with you (whoever you are...if there are any you's out there reading this). I just want to share the message mainly. Its just what I said before. First, negative thoughts can KILL you!!! Try to be positive because there truly is always someone worse off than you. And the rest of the message is somewhat scientific, it talks about how to eat and how to live to use your body's immune system to its FULLEST potential. Our bodies were designed to fight off cancer, its just the Western way of life that has encouraged this cancer epidemic and inhibited our bodies so much they can't do their job. I'm not going to go into it all..I know some will laugh and say whats the point. But the point is that you really do have some say over what happens to you. Life is about choices and sometimes the ones you make can give you more life. I'm trying to raise Ava to know this and live this. I want her to eat healthy not because I want her to be skinny but because I want her to BE healthy and live her life to its fullest. I refuse to pump her full of these chemicals that are in so many foods today. If it was up to me, Kenny and I would move somewhere and have our own farm and grow all of our own food, even the meat! But I'd have to find someone else to be the butcher because I just can't (won't....I CAN do anything) do that. But I'm going to work with what I have right now and try to give Ava all the tools to live her life to its greatest potential (no matter what she chooses to do with it) and hope and pray that she thanks me for it one day.
I know some of you are bored or laughing at me right now but that is ok. If you are a reader I encourage you to read the book, I'm not even half way through yet and I am already inspired. The author is just confirming what I already believed. Having "bad genes" is no longer an excuse for anyone.
